time

have you ever had an off day? how about an off week? i don't know what it is but ever since i've been a "grown up" (what ever that is) I feel as though i have more and more of these. and it's never anything in particular. for example...this week one of my off things has been that i can't sleep. every now and then this happens. but for me it's usually like i'm laying in bed tossing and turning and i can't turn off my brain but this week it's been more like i can't even bring my self to get into bed and try. now i know there are lots of us out there who have had these weeks. where we're so stressed we can't consentrate. or we're so tired we can't sleep. or we're so overwhelmed we can't get anything done. the ironic thing to me is that if we could consentrate, sleep, and get things done, we wouldn't be stressed, tired, or overwhelmed. anyway, i don't really have any plan to fix this or any advice to give but i do have a thought.

I remember when i was a kid and i thought how much better life would be, how much easier, how much simpler life would be when I "grew up". Well, i did that and i want to go back. i want "i can't sleep" to mean that i couldn't get to sleep until 10pm instead of 9pm. i went my stress of tomorrow to be a math test or what i'm going to wear to the dance. i want to be overwhelmed by how i'm going to beat mario bros. or tetris and if i am going to go to Chris's party or not.

i guess i just don't want to worry about bills. or have to think about the life and death of those closest to me. or process marriage, work, and money all in one package. now i'm not trying to say i hate being my age or anything but i am saying i had one of those weeks and my best solution is coming from my time machine i built last night. hello 10 years old again, here i come.